Okay - I just found out that pickamix is really alive and I am mostly confused. I know I cried all day after reading that she died. I've had some RL - but I also just gafiated because of the emotional load. (GAFIA - get away from it all - an old ST fandom term). I am sorta no one here and I like that - I have done big frog and hated it. Mostly I like to watch and sometimes talk or make comments, or beg for more of a story. But even after a few years in Buffy fandom, I find that this place can be like Braille, and I can feel things but not figure them out. There's all sorts of under currents, rip tides, and other water stuff. So - confused.
But I have kept up with Kerri because she and I were friends. We tried to write together and we had very different styles so that part didn't work. But we talked a lot about ourselves and life. We told each other things we never shared with others here (at least until recently for me).
Guys - Salustra will not be coming back to fandom. The stroke she had has robbed her of the ability to speak or move beyond the simplest things. When she is able to communicate she is doing so by blinking to her sister, and that is very rare. Mostly she is just trapped inside herself, and I don't know about you but that is my personal nightmare scenario. Her sister updates us about once a month, and posts the same updates on her own FB. I don't know what goes, I don't know who has what history, I do know that this is very much for real.
Update: Hi all, Todd and the girls went up to visit Kerri today, my allergies are getting the better of me. She was tired and not as responsive. They said she tends to respond more when I am there. The girls also took a bunch of decorations up to the room to help cheer her up. They drew pictures and put up posters. They also met up with a friend who visited her too. We are very grateful she had other visitors. Honestly the only thing we can do is give her time, prayers and time. Remember hug your loved ones! And thanks to everyone! Hugs Stacy Mikosh
I am sending reiki, and praying in my own agnostic way. But I'm not all that sure what would be best. All I know is that if it were me, I would want to move on to whatever there is next. Just wanted to share - kinda felt there are some out there who know her to some degree and maybe want to know. But, like I said, confused here.