|Sep. 11th, 2014 @ 09:29 pm Fandom drift, LJ, and a thread to talk about it all|
|Surgery was the 20th , and I am still feeling sore and exhausted. I'm told that this is gonna last for a few weeks, then get kinda better for months, and should be almost normal in a year. But - good part here - I really think that this is gonna do one helluva lot to get rid of the pain so anything else is worth it.|
So there's been a lot of talk for a while now about how quiet things are on LJ, and I've been thinking about that since well before the surgery. Some people complained about rudeness but I haven't experienced that. I have experienced a sort of deflating.
I've only been online a for a week or two - this counts as my required sitting in a chair time. I'm no longer in any shape to spend the hours online that I used to. One hour, and I am whipped. So I had to make choices - which sites would I spend my limited time at? I started with email and facebook - just to catch up on friends and family. Then I began finding comfort fiction - old stories that didn't take brain power to digest because I can practically quote them.
After a week or so I checked out tumblr, which is the height of mindless pleasure. I know people speak of stories and essays but I stick to reblogging pretty pictures and 95% are BTVS and Angel. It's sort of like being in a candy store and making a mosaic. No need to think - just hit the button and post the pretty.
Now I am back here at LJ. This is where my people are, even if we sometimes don't talk forever. There are people here that I will love even if we never talk again. I've found real friends who reach out to me, and I have been able to reach out to others. This is a good place. But it's no longer really a Buffy & Angel place. So many fans have moved on, and even though I do love other shows, I haven't found one that even comes near to Buffy. I watch a show, and there is part of me that enjoys it, and still part of me that knows how much better Buffy did it.
I want to talk Buffy - I want to discuss questions I've had forever. A few weeks before I had the surgery I signed up at Buffy Board. I'd heard it was a complete Bangel spot, but I wanted to test it out. It's not heaven, but I like it. It's not LJ or tumblr, but it's a place where we can debate, and there are all sorts of different views. Yeah, there are a few 'hate Spike' idiots who love to repeat the same old crap. I told the most vociferous that every month we Spike fans dance skyclad under the full moon, chanting and drinking the blood of Spike haters (or melted chocolate for vegetarians). He kinda didn't know what to say after that. Since I refuse to be baited, no one really tries.
I haven't gone back to BB since before my surgery but I probably will in another week or so. It's not a place with emotional connections, but I do have to think there. I like to take my wits for a walk.
So, that's my tale of drift. I have no twitter or other bells and whistles. I have these few spots as my favorites, and fanfic as my huggy bear. Now that I am getting better, I will be coming by here more often. I'm still limited by time, pain, and pain medications. But I'd kinda like to talk about what is going on here - why are people leaving and why are people staying. I'm thinking this might just be some more growing pains. You either grow or you die - I wanna help us grow but I don't know how. Reactions? Ideas? Anything?