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Sep. 23rd, 2016 @ 06:27 am (no subject)

It's a Joss Whedon short filled with a lot of the actors we know and enjoy - and it is dedicated to getting the vote out. This is not just an election - it is a tipping point, probably for the entire world.

The most important part of the site is that it gives you the opportunity to register in every state. Pass it on - make it viral. The site also contains the video I have embedded from youtube.
Aug. 10th, 2016 @ 01:00 am (no subject)
A question you need to ask:

For Congressional Reps who still haven’t withdrawn support for Trump

When you think about Trump"s 2n amendment joke, don’t forget Christina Taylor Green. She’s the little girl who died when Sarah Palin made a joke - when Gabby Giffords was nearly killed because some crazy decided to act on that joke. Think about Trump’s supporters…and ask if the death of a child is reason enough for you to stop supporting Trump. You already put party in front of country - why not stop at that. When you put getting in office above your moral integrity you clearly no longer are fit to serve.

Think about the people who support him:

Please pass this to everyone you can. Any congressional representative who still supports Trump needs to be asked these questions.
Aug. 7th, 2016 @ 02:57 pm Season Six - BTVS - the thing about magic
The thing about magic - there are always consequence…always!

Spike said it - magic had real world consequences - setting things in motion. It was something he learned the hard way in season two after he captured Angel, and very cavalierly did a spell to heal Dru. At that stage he seemed unafraid and competent with magic. Dru was healed - and Spike ended up burned, in a wheelchair and - as a consequence of Angel’s curse being broken (magic again) - he lost Dru to Angel. plus whatever Angel did to him while he was helpless. Daddy likes to hurt his girl, and I assume his boy. (Spike, my boy!) And since Dru was healed, she didn’t need him anymore.

Now - season 6 - Willow, Anya, Tara, and Xander do a spell that 3 of them know is wrong, a dark magic spell that goes against the natural order. In so doing they open the door to forces which rule the entire season.

Willow completely opens herself to darkness. She kills a fawn to use it’s blood for necromancy (which she lies about). The consequences are twofold - she can’t shut down the dark magic, and it begins to change her. As a consequence of killing the fawn Tara dies, because the life of the slayer is worth more than the life of a deer. A person is a fair exchange. That’s when Willow completely gives into the forces she opened herself too. It hits her in her vulnerable spots - insecurity, needing to be in control, wanting to help - and it twists them throughout the season

Xander knows he shouldn’t do it - but he goes along anyway. As a direct result of the spell, he loses his support group, and all he has is Anya - so he goes along with her. Even when he begins to have doubts about committing. Xander always prevaricated, and sometimes lied because he was afraid of losing his support group. He tended to believe that the group looked down on him, and that was reinforced when they abandoned him. His own fears took over, and kept him from being emotionally honest with Anya.

Tara didn’t speak up strongly enough - and when she tried to speak up it was too late to affect Willow. Had she spoken up when she could have, knowing the dangers, Willow would not have immersed herself in dark magic. And if Willow hadn’t listened, then she should have done more - get Giles at least.

Anya did it for Xander, because she wanted closeness. His friends being peeled away gave her that in appearance, but he was to insecure to risk honesty. If she had taken him aside to talk to him, to explain the dangers, then maybe he and she could have put an end to it. We all saw that Willow could be talked down by Xander.

So the spooky entity that got pulled along was a blind - the real consequences of the spell are revealed over the entire season. Dark magic twists the best intentions. The thing about magic - there are always consequence…always!
Jul. 2nd, 2016 @ 08:22 am Why the Donald Trump child rape lawsuit is credible and can’t be dismissed

The documents state that the plaintiff was only 13 years old at the time of the alleged crimes and was "enticed by promises of money and a modeling career to attend a series of parties, with other similarly situated females, held at a New York City residence that was being used." The papers further claim that "at least four of the parties were attended" by Trump.

In a graphic description of the alleged rape committed by Trump, the lawsuit says:

Defendant Trump initiated sexual contact with Plaintiff at four different parties.On the fourth and final sexual encounter with Defendant Trump, Defendant Trump tied Plaintiff to a bed, exposed himself to Plaintiff, and then proceeded to forcibly rape Plaintiff. During the course of this savage sexual attack, Plaintiff loudly pleaded with Defendant Trump to stop but with no effect. Defendant Trump responded to Plaintiff’s pleas by violently striking Plaintiff in the face with his open hand and screaming that he would do whatever he wanted.

The lawsuit was originally filed in April in California but was thrown out. The plaintiff, identified in the California documents as Katie Johnson, sought $100 million dollars in the suit and did not have legal representation. After the case was dismissed, the plaintiff filed the June 20 complaint in New York, this time with legal representation.

The assault allegedly took place in 1994 at the mansion of Jeffrey Epstein, who is also named in the suit and accused of “anally and vaginally raping” the defendant, as well as beating her and threatening her and her family. Known as the “billionaire pedophile,” Epstein is similarly no stranger to rape and sexual assault, but while he was able to settle many cases out of court by paying hush money to “scores of alleged victims who said he serially molested them,” in 2008, one stuck. After being convicted of soliciting sex from an underage girl, he had to register as a Level 3 registered sex offender — a “threat to public safety.”


Trump’s well-documented misogyny and prior rape allegations provide context, and for those for whom a woman’s word is not sufficient evidence: Jane Doe’s suit includes a witness statement that corroborates her account.

Signed by one “Tiffany Doe,” who purports to have been Epstein’s “party planner” from 1991 to 2000, the statement details how the witness was tasked with procuring “attractive adolescent women to attend these parties.” Doe says she recruited Jane at Port Authority and witnessed the assaults against her by Trump and Epstein:

I personally witnessed the Plaintiff being forced to perform various sexual acts with Donald J. Trump and Mr. Epstein. Both Mr. Trump and Mr. Epstein were advised that she was 13 years old.

I personally witnessed four sexual encounters that the Plaintiff was forced to have with Mr. Trump during this period, including the fourth of these encounters where Mr. Trump forcibly raped her despite her pleas to stop.

I am coming forward to swear to the truthfulness of the physical and sexual abuse that I personally witnessed of minor females at the hands of Mr. Trump and Mr. Epstein . . . I swear to these facts under the penalty for perjury even though I fully understand that the life of myself and my family is now in grave danger.


Given the fact that this most recent allegation against Trump is gaining steam, it’s unlikely he’ll want to draw further attention to his own relationship with Epstein. Because while he might deny the contents of Jane Doe’s lawsuit, he’s on the record as being good buds with the billionaire sex offender. In 2002, before he could ever dream of being voted the Republican presidential nominee — and before the extent of Epstein’s horrific transgressions became public knowledge — Trump told New York Magazine (bolding mine):

“I’ve known Jeff for 15 years. Terrific guy. He’s a lot of fun to be with. It is even said that he likes beautiful women as much as I do, and many of them are on the younger side. No doubt about it, Jeffrey enjoys his social life.

This is sickening, and scary. Even hating Trump I would have ignored it - except that there's a witness, Epstein is a level 3 pedophile with billions to spend, and Trump enjoyed the younger women. Hate Hillary all you want for being a part of the machine. I get that. But it sickens me that Trump might end up president because of that hate.
Jun. 23rd, 2016 @ 08:32 pm To all my British friends
I am so sorry - and so scared for all of us. This is so massively fucxked up. If Trump wins after this then we should all move to Canada.
Apr. 28th, 2016 @ 04:57 pm Central sleep apnea in a healthy toddler - my grandchild, Emmy.
My grandchild, Emmy, had a sleep study done this month on the 13th. We got the results of that study yesterday, and she has central sleep apnea. It's a rare form of apnea that means her brain stops sending the signal for her to breathe as she sleeps. We've been referred to a pediatric pulmonologist and a neurologist for testing, and she might also need to see a cardiologist, depending on what they find/don't find.

Central sleep apnea is rare overall, and almost always found in adults with either heart or brain damage - or in preemies. The preemies outgrow it by the time they're about 6 months old. Emilia is 18 months old, and otherwise appears to be completely healthy. My daughter took her in because she wakes up crying in terror almost every time she goes to sleep. Now we know why.

Prayers, and healing wishes of any sort accepted - but most of all, I know some people here are in the medical field. Does anyone have any information? It really is impossible to find anything on central apnea in children - the only info is on obstructive apnea, the most common kind.

In other news, I fell and managed to give myself whiplash so I am wearing a cervical collar. Life is interesting....in that Chinese proverb kinda way!
Apr. 11th, 2016 @ 12:27 am Father issues - Angel and his blue eyed boys
Father issues:

Penn - he was the first one, the attempt to prove his own father wrong. Angel turned an angry young man into a vampire, and taught him how to kill. Family blood is the sweetest blood - savor it and Penn did. He approved of Penn, taught him, praised him, and Penn became a true follower. A sycophant. A bore. There was no challenge - nothing to fight, and no reason to keep him around. The last time Angel saw him Penn tried to kill him and ended up as dust.

Spike - the next one, the mewling poet Dru dragged home who seemed to think that being a vampire was being accepted into an elevated social circle, with fangs. Angel fought him, and Spike fought back with mockery, disrespect, truths and any other weapon he could find. He adapted, became a brawling street thug, grabbed at life with too much bravado for a dead man. Spike adapted - that was his one power - he learned pain, stood up and grinned ready for more. Sometimes they talked though, played cards, drank, shagged and they always had each other’s back. The last time Angel saw him, Spike had teamed up with the slayer to defeat him and send him to hell.

Lawson - he was a choice Angel couldn't win no matter which way he chose, so he decided to play the number game, took a hero and turned him into a monster so everyone else would survive. He let that blue-eyed boy live to fight another day. The last time he saw Larson, his boy tried to kill Angel and his family and Angel staked him.

Doyle - picked him off the streets and taught him to be a hero. The last time Angel saw him was when Doyle, the hero, died and Angel wished he had just been a few seconds quicker.

Wesley - distrusted him at first, and then he adored him and then he saw him. Wesley saw him as no other human ever had, was the closest thing he ever had to a friend. He didn't crumple when Angel tossed him aside for blood vengeance, he just took over, adapted, grew - became someone to trust, to rely on, who always found the right answers and had his back. Then Wes distrusted him again, took his blue eyed boy and sent him to hell. Angel tried to kill him, wanted to kill him, but they both ended up surviving.

Connor - that was the only blue-eyed boy he wanted - Connor was the meaning of everything, of coming back from hell, of killing a cellar full of lawyers. Connor was hope in a slightly wet diaper holding his finger, he was warm bottles in the night, and he was crying and laughing and so pure. Then his real boy, his miraculous blue eyed boy was taken to hell and turned into a monster by his other father. Connor tried to kill him, drove him insane, and finally tried to kill everyone, so Angel slit his throat.

Angel gave him away to warm cookies and smiles, and took away everyone's memories of all that happened to this blue-eyed boy, and he sold himself into slavery as the price.

Spike 2.0 - Spike with a soul, souled Spike, that pretentious blue eyed boy thought he was the real hero and Angel saw that people believed him sometimes. They pummeled each other with words and they had each other’s backs against a necromancer, and a ghost. Then Spike was corporeal and they pummeled each other with more than words, with fists and swords and truths, and Spike had a chance to dust Angel but they both survived again. They hated each other some more, argued, listened to each other sometimes, saw each other, rescued each other, shagged, fought, and they were only intimate one sober weekend - all the other times they were drunk but that didn't count because Angel had an excuse for it (whatever it was that time).

Connor was alive, wanted to fight, Angel saw that look in his eyes and sent him away to live.

Wesley was dead, wanted redemption; Angel saw that look in his eyes and sent him away to die.

The last time Angel saw him, Spike had his back, ready to adapt, ready to fight for honor and justice and all the right things. This was his idiot child, his very last blue eyed boy, the one who followed his path and was going to die with him, for him, beside him, and Angel gripped his sword tighter and eyed the dragon.

Okay, I have no idea what this is - just a thing that's been floating in my head. Share your own ideas, I guess. All the characters have some sort of pattern in their lives. I see this as one of Angel's. Find other patterns, and/or disagree with this, whatever.
Apr. 5th, 2016 @ 03:06 pm Death to Mozilla
I logged on this morning and everything was fine - I logged on this afternoon and was presented with a brand new Firefox acct. My entire acct has been lost - all the restore options do not work. So I'll be spending a few days trying to find at least some of my bookmarks. most of all i miss my fanfic bookmarks - I probably had over 100. So if you have fanfic - particularly Spangel, Spiles, or spesley - can you send me a link?

Also - I had a white page with all my friend's post and it took up the full page - on the top I had the option to mark things and read, and in the bottom I cold delete them, or delete all. Any idea how to get back to that page? I can't figure out how to delete comments which means i have to repeatedly scroll through every comment each time i stop to respond and it is driving me insane!!

Oh, hell - and my Wayback machine stories!
Mar. 27th, 2016 @ 06:25 pm I miss Buffy
I miss Buffy. I miss the whole finding the B-verse and finding fanfic and finding people to rec fics to, and getting recs, and the Buffy community where small things led to long discussions and I have Buffy thoughts. I was playing on the Buffy Board for a while, and I might go back, but it's not as much fun. The mods said that people were leaving because of spirited discussions (arguments) - mostly me and one of the old timers - so we were taken to task. No more really vigorous debate allowed - so no more exploration and passion. Just kind of fluffy stuff. I have friends there, and i like the people by and large - but I miss Buffy.

I want to pull it apart and gnaw on the bones and find tidbits, then rebuild it and admire it. I want my B-verse community back. It's an ache.

Buffy thoughts....

What did happen in the Initiative? Spike is taken, and 2 weeks later he appears just fine. But he has no idea that they did surgery on him, or even that the blood is drugged. What was the point of chipping vampires to start with? Why didn't the chip kick in until he was away from the facility? Why were they so desperate to find him? Was he the only chipped vampire? Did they want their chip back? Was the chip something that could be reused? For that matter, if the locator hadn't been flushed, what were they going to do? How do you keep a low profile during a public kidnapping?

Having rewatched parts of season 5, I am convinced that the love of Xander's life was Riley. Xander actually wriggled with joy when he saw Riley, fawned on him, repeated every word Riley said, talked about Riley as if he was the supreme being. He never behaved that way with Anya or Cordelia - they were more like trophies, not objects of adoration. Season 4 should have featured the big love triangle between Xander, Riley and Buffy - and the chemistry award goes to the guys.

I really love Illyria - finally. It's taken me this long to get to that point. Wesley is so vulnerable to her, and on so many level. But as time goes on I kinda find Fred annoying. I mean, Fred just after they find her is great, but Fred and Gunn never seemed to have the chemistry, and she was so willing to let him take the lead. Then season five Fred became a Fred icon, her character was to be the Good person who was never tempted. I don't think Wesley was in love with her, I think he idealized her.

I still think that the best relationship shown in the verse is Wesley and Lilah - not a healthy relationship but they were equals. Lilah was the only real adult on either show - independent, amoral, opportunistic, and completely unashamed. I love the way that Wesley and she worked out their darkness, and I really think they had no chance in hell simply because they would never actually live in the same universal construct of right and wrong but in their bubble they were complex, hot, and had so much sexual tension the screen melted.

Oh, and why is it that no one ever seems to take into account the fact that the First, in season seven, was messing with everyone's mind. I've had some passionate discussion on the B-board with someone who insists that the only times the First was present was in the few scenes that it was shown. But the First is a mindf*cker extraordinaire, but it didn't try to break up the group, fracture relationships, and take part in the mutiny? And, for that matter, exactly how did the First appear to Giles - why was he so determined to kill Spike? I'm thinking the First appeared to him as Angelus - delighting in their torture, and warning him about Spike, or maybe assuring him that spike was really safe.

Does anyone else miss the B-verse community - I think it filled a place in me, and I've watched and loved all sorts of other shows but none of them fill that place.
Mar. 9th, 2016 @ 11:42 pm Unfriending
I've hit my limit of allowed friends so I am going to have to defriend to friend in the new friend thingy which I am part of - and want to do.

The trouble is I don't have the time to see if people are still active - that's a lot of accounts to go through. So, if we are still friends on your side then we are on my side - and if you could let me know then process of elimination should work.

Also - can anyone explain how to defriend. :)
Cuz knowing that would help a lot.